I know you won't see it, but at least let me write it down.
Is it cheating if I’m missing and thinking of someone else who isn’t you?
"Fame doesn’t fulfill you. It warms you a bit, but that warmth is temporary." - Marilyn Monroe
What happened to us, that you suddenly disappeared from my life? If I had given you the assurance then, would you be here with me?
I would have fought against the world for you, but you never gave me a chance to. Tell me then, what am I supposed to do? I should’ve held on to you, I shouldn’t have let you go, I should have found a way to escape all these shackles around my ankles and wrists. I should have and could have, but you never gave me the chance and strength to do so.
What happened to us? I almost had you. That’s right. Almost. I could have ditched the world to have you. I almost ditched the world. So please, tell me, how do I make you come back to me?
我们并没有错。只是相逢恨早。如果说, 你有一天突然想要生活在有我的未来, 情告诉我。那时候的我们, 应该有能力挑战这个世界。
Babe, I still can’t forget you. How could you just lets go like that? Did I not mean anything to you?
I would have fought against the world for you, if you gave me the chance. Am I that untrustworthy? Was there ever a we?
You’ve always made me question why I choose to be in a relationship that I’m in now. But you’ve never given me the answer. You’ve got a lot of questions and worries running through your pretty little head, but you’ll never choose to confide in me.
So tell me, did my douchebag-ness make you reconsider?
I’ve always wanted an us, but all you’ve given me is an ‘Almost’.
You know what’s the saddest thing?
I almost had you. All you had to do was reassure me and tell me we’ll be alright. But you decided that it was best if our lives never crossed paths again.
I feel none of it.
This is a joke.
Has always been just as it is.
Things that you can’t have are the best because it’s only a dream.
Made negligible by technology.
Made significant by emptiness.
They’re never there when you need someone.
So you sought after the endless need for companion through other means.
You cheated. You lied. You never felt guilty.
You say that it’s justified.
You have a thousand and one reasons to justify your actions.
You are lonely.
You need support.
But it’s all a lie.
You lie to yourself.
You deny yourself any chances to get used to independence.
You continue living each day relying on the companionship of another.
You immerse yourself in the fleeting moment of unreal happiness.
You drown yourself in the fantasy you created to jail yourself in.
But in the end, you are alone again in the middle of the night, lying on your king size bed, wondering what went wrong.
You went wrong.