Nuisansical

Alcohol is not a relief. It’s escapism in its own form. Preceding it is restlessness. Ensuing it is reality. 

You’re never a choice, never an option. You’re my decision.

彼は君じゃない。

when i look back, and choose to go to NUS alone, I made more friends, broadened my perspective and learned how it feels like to venture alone, learn how to deal with uneasiness and most importantly, open my mouth and say “Hi, I’m Eileen and you are?”

“when you’re trying to make something that already exists, something with arms and legs, legitimately work long distance, it’s difficult. It’s difficult because you have the best and worst of both worlds – all the freedom of being single and none of the fun, all the comfort of being in a relationship and none of the contact. It’s like you already have a large part of your life figured out but it’s mysteriously nowhere to be found, and when you think about it, that’s probably one of the weirdest feelings you’ll ever get.”

- http://thoughtcatalog.com/2012/how-do-you-handle-a-long-distance-relationship/

An artist’s greatest talent is not the ability to draw a brilliant, beautiful, life-like picture; but is the ability to draw their loved ones to them.

「有些人不是你想爱就可以去爱的。所以如果遇到自己心动又可以爱的人，就一定要把握机会。」

But now, I realized that all had been left in the distant past, frozen and preserved in an untouchable time of youth, adventure and immaturity.

She is now, just an old friend. Just a memory.

A Thousand Words

On my way back home

I’m slowly breaking down, just can’t help it

Never once been better off without you

And I, I need you more than ever

Wanted to stay with you forever and ever

Oh, what am I gonna do?

My tears are falling down

And why did we come out today? (No no no)

I’ve come to find one thing and I’m sure

That you were my girl just yesterday

But now you’re miles apart

I’m running out of time

Cause soon I gotta find

The ways of living without you, I’m losing my sight

Of path we walked through together

And baby tell me how

Does it have to be right now?

You’re all that I’ve got, all I need

So I’m willing to say a thousand words put together, I love you

(I do)

(I love you)

Now you’re gone far away

You’re so far away from my heart

And I’m so afraid to lose you, baby

Cause I, I need you more than ever

Wanted to stay with you forever and ever

Oh what do I have to do, oh

Our world had spun around

But why did we just stop today? (No no no)

It’s hard for me to say, cause I’m sure

That you were my girl just yesterday

But now we’re miles apart

I’m running out of time

Cause soon I gotta find

The ways of living without you, I’m losing my sight

Of path we walked through together

And baby tell me how

Does it have to be right now?

You’re all that I’ve got, all I need

So I’m willing to say a thousand words put together, I love you

You know I love you, right?

Can you hear me?

Are you there?

I know it’s been so long

Oh so long

But if you’re out there,

Here is where you belong

Sometimes, we see things that we don’t want to see, by accident. We hear things that we don’t want to admit, by accident. But how often do we go past the accident to admit that we’ve always known it all along, but refuse to admit it?

精神鸦片

“We hurt people who love us and love people who hurt us”

Goodbyes

Goodbyes don’t hurt. It is the flashback that follows after, which haunts us. People move on with time, and that makes ‘Goodbye’ one of the hardest things to say. Since saying ‘Goodbye’ means that we have to walk away with memories, and memories fade with time, I only pray that I will be able to remember some. 

Actually. I hope, I can remember everything about you forever.

I miss you. I miss us. Especially today.